Disappointment

Disappointment happens to all of us, often. It is still difficult to swallow. What disappoints me most, is when people I love make decisions I deem as "bad". I know, it's not my decision, and it's not my place to speak up, but it is hard to watch from the outside knowing someone you care for is making a mistake. This is the one aspect of me that makes me truly feel "controlling". I want to guide or control people's actions, so things don't turn out poorly. Right now I am watching a beautiful woman, who is extremely talented, shy away from her talent; push it aside, shelve it. I don't understand why this is happening. I have my opinions, my viewpoints, but no true understanding of why. It's maddening. This is all that's on my mind today. A few tears have escaped my eyes thinking about it. It's hard when your friends want to leave. It's hard when you want them to know your disappointment and sadness, but don't want to guilt them or make them feel bad in any way. So, you just sit with your disappointment instead. Sip it, like steaming hot tea, waiting for it to cool enough to push it down. After it's down, you know that you will be able to pass it through your body, and flush it away. That will certainly feel better than what you sit with now.